This pretty much broke me. Lars took his own life on Sunday the 29th. It’s been a really rough couple of weeks. I actually Googled can you run out of tears? (Note: no. Your body makes up to 50 gallons a year.) I am only recently thinking clearly. I don’t necessarily believe s an artist and witch I feel things more deeply than others. BUT I cannot imagine it being much worse. As a community healer and producer I stepped into organize a memorial and be there for as many as I could and maintain my own mental health. I feel like I need to do some kind of tribute for him…but for now I guess the lesson is stay alive. Hang on. Keep breathing. Of course I immediately started writing a thousand things and made a new video project! Cause ya know not doing anything is NOT an option for me. So I’m making a bunch of short storytelling videos in Jan. I’m doing with Half Tongue Tribe guise. I think that’ll be more fun! And maybe scary? Or sufficiently weird? No idea but the shot concepts are wicked! I think Lars would like them. Half Tongue Tribe has been asked to write music for Genet’s Un Chant d’amour. I’m enjoying it. I think I’m leveling up musically. I’ve also ben frantically arts and crafting. Pics to come. Oh and I finished my video for class.
How does death effect me as an artist?
2020 is making it hella hard to be thankful. But yet, as they tell us: it could be worse. Yea but it could be a lot better! LOL Yes it could be both but the level of have and have nots have little to do with gratitude. It’s a state of being. Existing in a space of grace and thanks. It is not friggin easy (especially after some asshole clipped my side mirror. no damage but dude watch where you’re going!) I shot a short for my acting class Go On Now. It was super fun. My purple bead can attest to that! I am at 62k+ words with Folly! And I thought it was gonna be like 35!! Ha! They story is a tad repetitive. I’ll fix it. I always do. The story is reaching a cool climax. The first of three battles. Yea ok Tolkien I know.Of it ain’t broke? I got a wonderful note, below, from Angela saying An Elf to Live For made her sick friend laugh. It made me cry! So very cool! It filled up my soul! I don’t need to sella million copies or get excellent reviews, that was enough for me. ALSO I think I’m in the right frame of mind to illustrate TITI. I might have faith in the world again? We shall see. I’m also working on a trilogy of Viking porn because why-not?