So I’m not in rehearsal or prepping for a rehearsal, performing or crashing after a show for the first time in YEARS!!! How does it feel? Weird. Terrible. Boring. and just a tad peaceful. Things are happening and not-happening. I did Charmed Vessels for the holidays and it was awesome, so I did my Etsy site, which sucks. I would never buy something like this online…without feeling it and holding it. I was gonna take it down but i think having that stuff online helps. Right? I will get off my ass and take some samples to local stores and see if that helps…it’s not that I don’t believe in the spells I guess I just don’t believe in the average consumer to get it.. and that sux. Achilles is dead in the water. UGH. That sux too. Too much, WAY too much to go into now but suffice to say it isn’t happening any time soon. That bummed me out more than I can ever explain. My car died. RIP Lady Royale! Palm Spring bailed on History of Drag. I know, batting 1,000 right? BUT in a sliver of cool the new artistic director might be interested in next year. It’s not like I’ll be too old for the role :))) I have to start over. We shall see.
Paris is the best part of 2018! Booked flights, Paris airbnb! Excited. Costume is no where near done. Pieces are arriving. I might have over estimated my sewing talent! It should be fun, certain friends not getting along not withstanding…we shall see (AGAIN) I am sure fun will be had.
My Aunt Stella died. She was an amazing woman. I will miss her very much. It’s hard, when someone you love so much, someone you thought would always be there for you, the way she always had been, is no longer going to be here, to not be selfish. Me me me. I am sad. I am wrecked. I can’t stop crying. What she meant to me. Maybe that’s not such a bad thing. I guess, if someone helped make you who you are, maybe it should be impossible to speak about them without being self-referential.
Aunt Stella taught me kindness. She was kind to me when others weren’t. She never judged when it would have been easy to condemn. If life became unkind Stella would offer concern. A trait I have tried to copy, sometimes, well sometimes…