I’m not going to blame mercury retro because it’s been happening for a while, but everything feels split. Not in a crazy skitzo way more just a need to reconcile. For years I have been over-compartmentalizing. It’s a sort of self preservation system you use to get you through the bad times. Unfortunately it doesn’t serve you for the long haul. A lesson I have to keep relearning. Even now, writing this, part of my brain is like NO this site is for your writing and performing not your spiritual journey!! but how are those two things separate? I know better, which is also part of the problem. So I continue to share this. Shut up brain!! 🙂

Rehearsals for Mo-mo have been awesome and provoking. My director Marc keeps saying stop editing stop commenting why don’t you trust these delicious words? I feel like a kid again. I think this is good. There’s a really good quote I cannot remember fully that basically says we never know anything we just keep getting reminded of it.

I’m also starting to think of a story about Persephone that predates Greece. What would be the consequences of telling that story? We shall see. I se eher sitting calmly ina chair. Liek she’s ready for imformation. Not sure where that’s going…. BUT it’s the inspiration I had after lecture by Karen Tate. She’s amazing.

I seek wholeness. I am looking into spiritual groups like OBOD and the like, to be less solo more community based. I will make time to do this! I need to finish some old projects and make time for them. Make time for me. Make time to sit see the nothingness. That sounds wonderful!!!!!!