Screenshot

Funny, this site is supposed to be all about writer things and what, and yet how divorced are any of us from our day-to-day ins and outs of breathing and living in this world and its political angst and, of course, the real-life need to stop the world and get off for a bit. The exhaustion is real. Self-care is the only care. How much more a writer could I be than giving reasons to postpone the actual effort of fingers on keys or pen on paper???

But seriously folks, I went to PV with my friend Fred and had a really relaxing time. Drank a bit to much. Played with menfolk a but to much..ok that’s a  lie…just the right amount of time! lol And escaped the voices in my head telling me to get to work. Shh boys.. I’ll get there when get there. It’s occasionally still so hard just to chill out and not worry about any results or process versus product, or page count, or the like, just to blank out that overbusy mind and see what happens, not to clear the slate to write anew but simply be now, breathe, watch the pretty whale’s tail and nothing else. Glory!

Another more performance bass notes I have got a couple ads for Brighton fringe and reserved an Airbnb this little five credit trip is getting close to a lot lot more and I am totally OK with it I just need to take a breath and be like hey you’re not 22 you need somewhere real to stay and you to get there comfortably because you have to perform. I will see people say things like   you  slow down to get old which is the bullshit. I mean, I have the ankles of a 60 year old or may be a 3000 year old I just walked in Disneyland for one day with my family and can barely walk the next day I have to take care much like cuddle, coddle, and cradle my heart. Just so with ankles and knees and back pain lol

So I went away I did nothing and it was amazing and as I think about my schedule moving into spring I feel less tension that’s aggressiveness less fear or ambition just control, a relaxed welcoming let go. I wonder how long it will stay?

Oh, Shanna and I enter rehearsal ina week! LINES!